I ran to Walgreens today to pick up a prescription and I found Junior Mints on sale. A big box of them for $0.69! AWESOMENESS!
Waking up today my chest feels terrible. I have a cough and and the only way I can describe the feeling is “dusty”. My lungs feel dusty. I’ve never been good with words, can ya tell?
That’s another thing. I’m trying to stay away from my family. They all smoke. Being near them now and watching them smoke would almost certainly be an end to my cessation attempt. Therefore I have kind of locked myself in the house with the kids. I just have to keep thinking about how happy this is going to make DH at Homecoming.
@ 2100 – I am now at 72 hours. Supposedly my body is now officially 100% nicotine-free That means that from here on out it is a psychological game. The hardest thing will be this weekend when I have a bunch of people over for Bro #2’s baby shower. Everyone smokes. I am going to need a lot of willpower.
18 FEB 2011 @ 2100 – 19 FEB 2011 @ 2100
@1200 – Today seems harder than yesterday. DH called this morning, his first question was “how’s The Quit going”? I told him I hadn’t smoked at all and he sounded surprised. I think he was expecting me to tell him that I couldn’t do it; not that he wants me to fail, just that he wants me to quit so bad I think he was preparing himself for bad news. I liked being able to tell him that I was succeeding. So far, each time I have a craving I think about him and how much he wants me to quit.
When I woke up this morning I felt like I had smoked 3 packs of cigarettes yesterday. My chest was heavy and I was out of breath. It was a nasty feeling. Luckily it went away within 15 minutes but it was not pleasant. So far I’m doing OK. I have homework that I need to get started on. I’ve been putting it off because I typically smoke when I get stumped on a difficult assignment.
@ 2100 – 48 hours! I have made it to 48 hours. I won’t lie, I did make an attempt to find an old pack of cigarettes earlier when the Mother In Law called. She was going on and on about how she never gets to see the kids and a GOOD mother would FORCE the kids to go see her. I went outside to the truck, looked under the seats and in the glove compartment.. nothing. That was a good thing though. I could have gone to the gas station if I really needed to. I didn’t.
My nose feels like I have to sneeze, almost like I’m coming down with a cold.
At 48 hours they say “the nerve endings have started to regrow and sense of smell and taste are beginning to return to normal. Anger and irritability are at their peak”. Fantastic, this is not going to be good for my diet. Not tasting my food has been a definite help with losing weight.
17 FEB 2011 @ 2100 – 18 FEB 2011 @ 2100
The coughing isn’t too bad because I took a cough suppressant earlier when I began to cough. I want to stay ahead of it because I know it’s going to give me an excuse to start smoking again.
I’m also drinking more water to flush the toxins and chemicals from my body.
The first 72 hours are the hardest, right? @ 2100 – I have officially completed my first full day as a non-smoker. The timeline says that at 24 hours “anxieties will peak in intensity” and “within 2 weeks will return to pre-cessation levels”. That means I can expect a lot of stress for the next couple weeks. Fantastic. That’s what makes me smoke in the first place. I’m headed to bed now because I like the idea of sleeping through the worst of the withdrawals.